quit my membership at my natural foods co-op, meaning i said give me back my share. all 60 bucks worth. food prices have been going up all over, but that store in particular has jacked up prices beyond all reason. i know their profit margin is still small and they are basically passing along costs from their distributors. however other stores seem to have more pull with their distributors and can keep certain things reasonable. the guy at their help desk said they hope one of the reasons people stay as members is because of the nature of the store, what being part of a co-op means. the conversation went downhill from there. having shopped somewhere for 14 years means nothing. maybe it never did. i still care about buying local and organic. i just can't take it when something goes up $1 in a day, literally. it fucking adds up. i haven't bought new shoes in forever. or any new shirts except tees. my raises haven't kept up with my cost of living. not even close. and today i just lost my second job, just when i was considering the need for a third one. i don't have any more discretionary spending to cut plus i just broke up with someone and one of the reasons he gave was that i'm not spontaneous enough. yeah, i'd be more spontaneous if i had disposable income like him. instead i'm all let me spontaneously pay my bills. let me spontaneously not watch cable because i cancelled it. let me spontaneously not go on vacation and let me spontaneously avert a layoff at my primary job for the time being. so yeah i'm gushing personal stuff on here again after a hiatus of that. fuck it. all i can afford anymore is the truth anyway.