if there's nothing wrong with the universe there must be something wrong with me

which is the opposite of what beverly crusher said on star trek when unbeknownst to her she was caught in a static warp bubble and what she thought was the universe was collapsing around her and everyone was disappearing until she was all alone and the universe was smaller than the enterprise and shrinking to nothing and the hallways were turning to grayish pink mist so she had to jump into the disturbance of light and air she thought was what was making people disappear but it was really her son and the traveler alien trying to rescue her with a pathway to the correct universe she had come from. so she said to herself once the last other person was gone "if there's nothing wrong with me there must be something wrong with the universe" which enabled her to risk racing from the bridge to engineering and jumping into the vortex and end up being rescued. the rules of the incorrect universe had been determined by her thoughts at the exact moment she was trapped in the static warp bubble which was her reflecting on the statement an older scientist had made which is everyone leaves and disappears from your life eventually.

but in my case, there is actually something wrong with how i'm seeing the universe i'm in, which essentially makes it as if i'm in a static warp shell of my own negative mind/experiences/thoughts. and i can escape this flat empty universe by creating and leaping into the vortex. by making and going into the rabbit hole. by trusting. by wanting. by testing. by changing my perception. by seeing and naming realities. by seeing and naming unrealities. the ways i view and experience and participate in the world do not need to be static. life does not need to be how it's always been. it cannot be. it can be new. it can be confusing. it can be a grayish pink mess. it can be beautiful. it can be ugly. it can be ecstatic. it can be everything.

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[marco valente]

Yeah, our view on this universe is extremely dependent on our variable perception! Thats something I've come to realise over the years...