despite the calms forté (homeopathic sleep helper) and herbal tea (herbal tea) and cosby rerun (vanessa loses a history paper and it turns up in the freezer), i could barely get to sleep last night. and when i did i experienced one of those waking nightmares that goes on and on until i was finally able to fully get up and put a mental stop to it. i was trapped in bed with an evil person from my past. not evil just in this dream. evil in real life and with a starring role in my dream. it was morning. the sheets were white and i was bunched up in them, struggling to get them below my chin so i could breath. the evil person kept pushing the sheets over my head and pinning my arms. there were layers and layers of sheets. it was so hot i knew i would pass out any second.
this person should have helped me survive but instead kept trying to smother me with gentle movements bunching the sheets around my head. i could see the sunlight through the white sheets. i was so sleepy but had to fight to stay awake so i wouldn't die. i was struggling to stay conscious. which probably explains why it was difficult to fully fall asleep. i bet if i had let myself get smothered in the dream i would have slept soundly. but then there's the whole die in your dream die in real life thing and i didn't want to risk it. i'm not ready to die. at least not until season 2 of fame comes out on dvd. and even after that, i've got things to do.
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