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dear everyone, please tell me what the fuck to do

i don't care that i'm always running from something, never to something.  i can't fix that life method so much right now and maybe running from is all i can do again.  what i know in my core is i can't stand where i am and i need it to change and i don't know what the fuck to do and i need help.  so whether you're a regular reader or not, please post a comment telling me:

• what the fuck city i should move to? 
• what the fuck should i do for a living?

so your comment may look like:  "devils lake, north dakota; jesus camp coordinator" (i just saw that jesus camp doc, okay, and that's where the camp was.  p.s. that movie was soooo boring.)

let me add i live in seattle so that's out, not because it's awful, just because i've been here 13 years and i need a change and maybe more guys with dark hair.  and as for work, let me add i'm at heart a non-commercial artist type, so the job just needs to pay the bills, have health benefits, not be too exhausting, and allow some type of people watching/life experience during it that could help feed my artist self some decent material for my off time.  i'm not going to say my exact education or current job.  and maybe i should try and be a commercial artist after all.  that's up to you all to say.  i'm clay.

or just forget that last paragraph and make something up.   this blog ought to tell you something about me to help.

p.s. i'll tell you all what i end up doing and even though i'm a horrible risk taker maybe i'm not so bad at it anymore.

attack of the killer vacation

i need seattle to be in the distance for a bit, but more than not being here i need to be somewhere else - a faraway land called vacation. the last 3 times i've been on vacation were 6, 9, and 14 years ago. i've had days off of work and gone out of my neighborhood, and even traveled for work, but i haven't had a pleasure destination in ages. i must break this trend and fast. here are some options i'm considering. suggestions welcome.

philadelphia
plus: i used to live there so it would be poignant and include a trip to more than just ice cream for the tallest apple pie east of pittsburgh
minus: i used to live there and i'm not in the mood for garbage tornadoes and mysteriously horrible south philly manufacturing smells

israel
plus: high level of fitness at least among those of military age would be a joy to behold
minus: 'splosions and the lack of appreciation for my inevitable taking of the nestea plunge into the dead sea

star trek 40th anniversary celebration in las vegas
plus: definitely being within 100 yards, i mean space yards, of nichelle nichols
minus: potentially being within 100 yards of the shatner

ikea
plus: welcoming
minus: foreboding

l.a.
plus: high percentage of classic gay fern bars
minus: "l.a. proved too much for the man...too much for the man..."

san francisco
plus: of course
minus: would be unable to leave thereby defeating the whole vacation concept since what i want is to look forward to returning to seattle in some small way

straight to hell
plus: toasty
minus: jews don't believe in hell